I miss you so much.
Everyday I miss you more and more. I know that I will miss you everyday for the rest of my life. You will forever be in my heart and in my mind.
This past week has been incredibly busy and incredibly hard. We are trying to plan a funeral for you. It's hard when all I really want is to pick you up in my arms and bring you home...still. I don't think that feeling will ever go away.
Tomorrow I get to see you. I can't wait. Even though I know you are up in heaven flying with the angels, seeing your sweet little body free of tubes and wires will make my heart smile and my eyes cry. Tomorrow I will kiss your sweet little cheeks and hold you precious little hands for the last time. I will cherish every moment with you.
You taught me a lot while you were here. Lessons I will never forget. I will be a better mother, a better friend, a better daughter and a better wife because of you.
I promise you that I will think of you every day and visit you constantly. I will be the best mother to you that I can be from down here. I know you are watching over us...but I wish I was watching over you. That's the way its supposed to be.
I love you Madden. I love you my sweet prince. I love you as big as the sky...look around, it's never ending.
Sending hugs and kisses to heaven. xoxoxo
The strength you and rocky have showed through all this is amazing and the love you have for your boys goes to show the amazing mother you are. May your family find peace in knowing madden is no longer in pain and watching over all of you. Site high little man the sky has no limit. Thoughts and prayers are with you!
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful photo of you all together. My thoughts are still with you and your family and have been all week. Your journey has inspired me to be a better Mom to my three boys as well. Thank you again for sharing your thoughts with us all! May your family continue with the strength that you have shown throughout this journey and may Madden be flying with the angels up in heaven (including 3 of my own losses from miscarriages). Hugs to you all. xxx
ReplyDeleteCarly, Rocky & family,
ReplyDeleteStrong. Passionate. Caring. Devoted. Incredible.
A few words to describe you all. I as a mother cannot imagine the strength it took to do what you did & to share with the world Maddens powerful journey. But I thank you for doing so. Your undying love & his immense strength has taught me so much about life and has made me a better mother and person. Life is so easily taken for granted and Madden has reminded us all how much of a gift life truly is. He changed a lot of people in his short time and truly was an Angel on Earth. He had a purpose and he heroically lived that purpose out. Thank you Madden for being you. May you alway be remembered for the life lessons you taught us & for the meaning you reinstilled into so many lives. Rest in Peace sweet boy. Thank you Carly & Rocky for allowing us to be a part of this and for showing us the true meaning of Love. My thoughts and prayers are with you for life.
My heart is aching for your beautiful family. Not an hour of a day has passed this week that I have not had you all in my thoughts... I hope that somehow there is some small comfort of you continuing this blog as a way to help your heart begin to heal. Your son was so beautiful, so strong...I have been so moved by your journey. I too will strive to be a better mother because of him. Many thoughts & prayers sent out into the universe for Madden's family...may you find some small peace in knowing how many strangers soul's your little angel has touched in his short life & now in his eternity <3 he lives on in the lives of countless others & continues to make this world a better place for having been it. God Bless you all Deluca family
ReplyDeleteMadden Deluca has defined the meaning of strength and love. We were all struck with amazement. He is truly and always will be a gift from Above. Carly,Rocky,Kaelin and Ryker.... Madden loves you all as big as the sky and always will.
ReplyDeleteMay God bless his soul in the heavens above.
The Day I Became a Heart Mother
ReplyDeleteOne day my world came crashing down,
I'll never be the same.
They told me that my child was sick.
I thought, "am I to blame"?
I don't think I can handle this.
I am really not that strong.
It seemed my heart was breaking.
I have loved him for so long.
I will not give up on this child.
I will listen to your advice.
I will give my child any chance.
No matter what the price.
I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.
I'll even use that feeding tube.
My child must survive!
Will he need a lot of therapy?
Will he gain the needed weight?
Please God, help me do this.
I will accept our fate.
When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.
How many parents would love that sound.
Tomorrow I will be kinder.
As another Angel earns his wings,
I run to my child's bed.
I watch him sleep for quite a while.
I bend down and kiss his head.
I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.
I look to You wondering why?
Oh Lord, I just can't know your ways....no matter how I try.
And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.
My mind says savor each moment he's here,
but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!
From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.
From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.
From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.
With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.
For all who see that faded line.
I look to them and smile.
You see my child is loved so much.
I would face ANY trial.
That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).
God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).
A heart mom is always a heart mom.
Now wise beyond her years.
For those who have angels in heaven,
Our hearts share in all of your tears.
Every day I will try and remember,
I was chosen for him (and no other).
I will always embrace that beautiful day.......
When I became a "Heart Mother".
- Author Unknown ♥ ♥ ♥
God Took Him To His Loving Home
ReplyDeleteGod saw him getting tired, a cure was not to be.
He wrapped him in his loving arms and whispered ‘Come with me.’
He suffered much in silence, his spirit did not bend.
He faced his pain with courage, until the very end.
He tried so hard to stay with you but his fight was not in vain,
God took him to His loving home and freed him from the pain.
Carly, Rocky, Kaelin & Ryder, My heart is with you all today as you say good-bye to Madden. Every Mother who has read your blog feels with you, cries with you and has been inspired by your families courage and strength over these past months. No words for condolence can take away your heartache, may God carry you all today.
All my prayers to you & your family.
Kim Brenner
Carly and Rocky,
ReplyDeleteWe've wondered many times since we left the Stollery on Canada Day "How is Madden doing?". You two are amazing parents and Madden was very lucky to have you both as you both were very lucky to have such a beautiful little boy. We are sending you our thoughts and condolences.
Bless you and your family,
Harper's parents
Carla & Family,
ReplyDeleteI am touched by your words and I can't begin to comprehend your loss - as the blog that leaves me in tears is your reality. Madden's courage and the love shown by the DeLuca family is inspirational.
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